Yeah. I am busy.  But usually I can find a minute or two to post to my blog.  So why don’t I? Slacker, right?

Early on in our marriage, Angela said I should keep a journal.  (Blogs are basically an online public journal so to speak.) She said I would help me express myself better.  That I could sort through my thoughts, look back at my stories, relieve the thing I forgot that I want to remember, and tear out the pages of the things I do not.  10 years, no journal.  10 years, and maybe 25 blog entries total.

Really I lack the creative ability to write about something new or something inspiring. My pastor challenges me often to read through books he recommends.  I am not much of a reader, and usually a book needs to be VERY good in order to catch my attention.  (Reading Organic Church by Neil Cole right now… it is very good.) A writer I am not.  Angela and I are working on writing a book on dating.  We have been on it for a couple of months now.  She write most of it.  I have ideas, but she makes it sound pretty.

I preach, but even that I would not claim as my best form of communication.  I stutter alot.  And often loose track of time and topic.  But God is good to me hear and allows me to continue and be blessed by lives being changed.

Nope.  I am a one on one relationship guy.  I communicate best when you are right in front of me, or on the phone.  My drama teacher in high school, when performing she said, “Think of one person in the audience (in the back row of course, as to be heard properly), and talk to them.  Make your story reach that one person.”

Now I am all growed up, I haven’t performed in a play since I was 19. So why does this still affect me?

Because I am performing still.  Ouch.  I look at my day to day interactions, and see where I am still “on stage telling my story.”  I love telling stories.  Mostly true ones, but every once in a while, I like to make one up too.

As Waters Edge Youth Group gets ready to disciple in a new and awesome way, I look at this short coming of mine as a major problem. When I have to communicate the word of God, will I be able to speak the truth, instead of perform?  Will I be able to approach the tough situation with the seriousness that it deserves, or will I just launch into another funny story?

And then I remember, God can use this, God can make this “problem” his.  He used Peter’s stubborness, Paul’s passion, Timothy’s youth, he can use me.  He can use you…

I want to write more and hope to more often as God works in me.  Pray for me, pray for the staff of Waters Edge as we follow God’s calling.  And pray that I will find more stuff to write (Blog) about.

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